i miss you,Dadi!
Most of the time i wear a smile, go to different places and just be happy about life…but behind these, there’s always a part of me saying that it’s not that genuine. Am i faking it? No. I just feel that when the day is over and it’s time for me to go home… all the laughters and smile was replaced by my longing to see him again… I miss my Dad! That’s the truth…
I miss his routines, his everyday newspaper reading, watching american idol, tennis matches, basketball games and international news, and the such. It was totally different now. I miss him so!
It was hard during the night, when it is in its deepest darknest, i can’t help but to think, how he is doing now? can he still remember me? or us? how is like at this very moment? such stuffs…looking for the answers is the hardest and that would simply make my eyes on tears. And i can’t do nothing about it, and that’s what makes me so sad.
And now, that I am already making my way into my masterals, i just miss the fact that he’s always been there with me, when i am passing my requirements, taking the exams, for the interviews, anything regarding my schooling, he’s always there and always been proud of me. And now, i don’t know.
So, when i got the news that i did passed the Masteral Admission Test in Education at the University of the Philippines, he’s the first to know. I talked to his picture, i hope he did get the message and i hope he’s very proud of me-I know he want me to pursue my masters.
Dadi, sorry for everything. I just don’t have the power to give you life or to gain back your life. And if you only knew how much i want you back, i just totally been missing you and your presence. I love you so much, Dadi! =’(
