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I’m so thankful and very happy to have you in my life now…

I love you so much!

It seems that everything is going my way for my work and studies. I ranked 33 out of 233 at the division of Q.C., last year i was ranked 73, i think.

And i just felt good about myself and i’ll get my job, and position back. =)

Most of the time i wear a smile, go to different places and just be happy about life…but behind these, there’s always a part of me saying that it’s not that genuine. Am i faking it? No. I just feel that when the day is over and it’s time for me to go home… all the laughters and smile was replaced by my longing to see him again… I miss my Dad! That’s the truth…

I miss his routines, his everyday newspaper reading, watching american idol, tennis matches, basketball games and international news, and the such. It was totally different now. I miss him so!

It was hard during the night, when it is in its deepest darknest, i can’t help but to think, how he is doing now? can he still remember me? or us? how is like at this very moment? such stuffs…looking for the answers is the hardest and that would simply make my eyes on tears. And i can’t do nothing about it,  and that’s what makes me so sad.

And now, that I am already making my way into my masterals, i just miss the fact that he’s always been there with me, when i am passing my requirements, taking the exams, for the interviews, anything regarding my schooling, he’s always there and always been proud of me. And now, i don’t know.

So, when i got the news that i did passed the Masteral Admission Test in Education at the University of the Philippines, he’s the first to know. I talked to his picture, i hope he did get the message and i hope he’s very proud of me-I know he want me to pursue my masters.

Dadi, sorry for everything. I just don’t have the power to give you life or to gain back your life. And if you only knew how much i want you back, i just totally been missing you and your presence. I love you so much, Dadi! =’(

“THIS IS A TRUE STORY…

i knew someone who didnt want to talk…thinking no one will understand…the people around will just judge…humiwalay n s katinuan…ewan kelan babalik…

find someone whom you can share your thoughts, desires…start with the silly thoughts and silly dreams…” - sir nelson garcia

Those are words coming from one of my favorite professor. And when everything seems dark, someone or something lightens up my day… Thank you for uplifting my soul, sir!

Well he is right, I need to find someone to share my thoughts and ideas…
hmmm….maybe someday, when i feel better… and when i’m ready.
But NOW is not the perfect moment.

My dad is alive. There’ s no such thing as death for him. For he’s not gone, for he’s in my heart, in my mind and in my soul….

if everyone forgets about him, then for me, it would never happen-and that’s what matters most.

My dad would always remain as the most important man in my life and nothing could ever change that.

wednesday din noon.

 isang buwan na ang lumipas.

ang mga pinakamlungkot na araw nang buhay ko…

nawala ang dadi ko. napaklungkot ng gabi na yun at paulit ulit sa isip ko ang mga nagyari sa kanya.  napakasakit na alaala. walang kasing sakit at bawat gabi ay naiiyak ako tuwing naaalala kong wala sya sa kama nya dahil ang totoo ay wala na sya. wala na.

wala nang naghuhugas nang pingan.

wala nang nahihiga sa sala.

wala nang bumabangon nang madaling araw.

wala na akong binibilihan nang gatas.

wala nang nagsasara nang bintana.

wala nang nagbabasa nang dyaryo.

wala nang nakaupo sa labas nang bahay.

wala nang nanunuod ng tennis, basketball, american idol kaya hindi narin ako nakakanuod.

napakasakit dahil  wala nang gumagawa nang mga munting alaala yun.

wala nang daddy. wala na ang daddy ko.

God has better plans. We can never hold on to something forever, we should learn to leave and to let go… But people who’s close to us will always hold that special place in our hearts…

There’s a song which will really describe the things about me and my dad. Here is it: “>http://videokeman.com/music-videos/dance-with-my-father-luther-vandross/”>

It is so hard to put all description of him into words and paragraphs, so here’s a bulleted description:

1.        My dad is Virgilio B. Palma. My brother’s and mine’s name (Vryan and Vivian) was derived from the first letter of his name.

2.        I was born 1986, so he’s already 40 years old then.

 3.        During the days of my infancy, he used to balance me with his one hand (as if I was a stick in his hand).

4.        During our childhood, we love it when he took us for a bath. He will splash us cold water as if we’re dogs.hahahaha….

 5.       When I was younger (5y.o.) and my mom scolded at me, I will pack my things, place it in a very small bag, leave home and stay at our neighbor’s house. Then, after few hours of  PAGLALAYAS, I will tell my Tita Ada (our neighbor), “Tita Ada, uwi na ako. Kawawa naman ang Daddy ko, wala siyang kasama e”.

6.  He had never lay his hands on us. He disciplined without hurting us.

7.  He’s my friend and i was his daughter. He never left me especially when me and my mom argue, he is always there to comfort me.

8. He worked so hard for us. He tried piggery and poultry just to supply our needs and wants.

9. He and mom bought me my 1st and second phone. Even though we did have much in life, they give me everything i want (i was so selfish then and all the guilt is here, now i’m way lot older… i’m asking, how could i ever did that to them?).

10. —— to be continued

I am still hurting and it takes every breath of mine to remember all the sufferings he had gone thru and that he’s not with us. But then again, to remember all the good memories and thinking he’s safe, well and happy with God, it brings joy and happiness to my heart.

I do miss him so much and I hope this pain will subside.

I did lost the greatest man of my life, but more than forever will he remain in my heart.

GOODBYE, DADDY!

I Love You So Much!

PRAYER: the distance between my knees and the floor is the shortest long-distance-call to communicate with God. Lord, heal my dad… please…

” This is our second Christmas without MAdeleine. Please help us make sure we don’t have a third” - Gerry and Kate McCann

How to Help:

• 1. If you’re going abroad this Christmas, please download a copy of the poster by clicking here and put them up on your travels.
• 2. Tell a friend if they’re heading off on holiday and would like to help
• 3. Please, always keep looking, wherever you are in the world. Thank you.

If you would like more information about how you can further support our search for Madeleine, or have any ideas of your own about what else we can do please visit www.findmadeleine.com.

starbucks signatured hot chocolate  - - - - - - - 140 pesos

kripsy kreme donuts - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 30 & 38 pesos

dairy queen ice cream - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 80-up pesos

friday’s dish (none specific) - - - - - - - - - - -  - - - 200-up pesos

These are daily cravings of a regular person.

Expensive. Luxurious.Poshly.

It was last night that I realized that many were given much but it was difficult for them to share it with other people.

But I would not lose hope…

It was not by chance that you’ve dropped by this site, maybe God would want us to be informed. Of what sharing is all about.

I am raising funds on buying adarna books (these books cause about 50 pesos-up) for our school library(NOH-School for Crippled Children- a public special school for students with physical disabilities). 

[pictures would be included here soon]

We already have fewbooks of adarna and caused so much delight for our students. And it was not much of a hassle if we would make them more happier.

Books can last a decades and imagine how it could help these children.

God is maybe happy today!

He also wants us to smile..hehehhe.. i love this picture!

Robert Pattinson

He played Cedric Diggory in the film Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.

That was the first time I saw him and give recognition for his beautiful features and cute face.heheheh…

And in the movie Twilight, i feel that he’s more gorgeous. I love his mysterious character and attitudes.heheheh…

i love him!

Im working on activity sheets to help other science teahers. please visit  my blog for i had included separate pages for activities for science 5, science 6 and chemistry. hope you’ll like it!

And this are the moments, I thank God that I am alive!!!!

thank you for those people who had sent their sympathies…

it makes me feel better and much loved!

i am very greatful for the fact that i just got some bruises at my knee

and still observing myself cause my head was hurt. But i hope it was just nothing…

If you’ve heard of this event, maybe it’s in your chemistry class.

Every year on OCTOBER 23 at exactly 6:02am-6:02pm, MOLE DAY is celebrated.

 It is done to commemorate the works of Amadeo Avogadro

in the field of Chemistry, especifically the equivalence of MOLE.

1 MOLE (of any substance) = 6.02 x 10^23 (particles, molecules, ions, etc.)

10^23 tells the date of the celebration october 23

6.02 tells the exact time of the celebration.

so, what are you waiting for? spread the good news and start celebrating it in your school!

what to do? Create games and activity that will make students understand mole.

HAPPY MOLE DAY!

W/TAX P12.14, i love it!

can you understand this code?

this is not actually a code, it is simply saying that my witholding tax from the old 700+, was now computed to be P12.14. ow, yes!  I love it!

PLEASE READ FIRST

Friends, i’m promoting this website.

http://ahonfoundation.multiply.com/journal/item/25/A_note_to_all_who_want_to_volunteer_for_AHON_Foundation

This foundation is helping public school to have their own library.
Now that im currently working in a public school named NOH(Nat’l Orthopedic Hospital)-School for Crippled Children,
i hope you could help me make this kids experienced colored books and develop their future.

It may take as low as PhP65 pesos to buy a book that can change a young Filipino child’s life for the better!
Bring books and children together!
Help build and develop public school libraries!
Buy and donate books from Fully Booked stores today! =)

For more info, visit the above website.
If you care, please pass.

SCIENCE EXHIBIT PRESENTATION

Science Teachers

Finger Printing, atomic model and spectrum-3rd year

Classification of Animals & Habitat-grade 5

Ecosystem and Relationship in the Ecosystem

Laboratory Symbols and Reactions-1st year

Microscope, Diffusion and Cells-2nd year

Camera and scopes

Before I start my blog here… I have included some facts about
harassment…

This is to inform you people to be very careful of your acts…

Girls be smart! Boys be careful…

 

Sexual Harassment Comes in Many
Forms

The following are behaviors
which could be viewed as sexual harassment when they are
unwelcome 

 

VERBAL

-Whistling or making cat
calls at someone 

-Making sexual comments
about a person’s clothing or body 

-Telling sexual jokes or
stories 

-Asking personal questions
about sexual life, fantasies, preferences or history 

-Repeatedly "asking out" a
person who is not interested 

-Turning work discussions
to sexual topics 

-Referring to an adult
woman or man as a hunk, doll, babe or honey 

-Telling lies or spreading
rumors about a person’s personal sex life 

 

NON-VERBAL

 

-Paying unwanted attention
to someone (i.e., staring, following, blocking a person’s path) 

-Displaying sexually
suggestive visuals 

-Making facial expressions
such as winking, throwing kisses, or licking 

-Giving personal gifts or a
sexual nature 

-Making sexual gestures
with hands or through body movements 

 

PHYSICAL

 

-Hanging around, standing
close, or brushing up against a person 

-Touching a person’s
clothing, hair, or body (to include giving a massage around the neck and
shoulders) 

-Touching or rubbing
oneself sexually around another person 

-Hugging, kissing, patting
or stroking 

Shit to all jerks and dorks in this world!

Knina lng ay may nakasabay akong dalawang HAYOP este
lalaki sa jeep…

May their souls rot in hell!

Before they even ride on the jeep… I heard them said,

“duon tayo sa likod may chicks”

For the record, I’m not a chick but they are referring to me…

Ako lang kasi ang nakasakay e! t@ng%na nila!

Ok, I’m pissed! But I’ve tried to cool down…

Mgakatabi sila nun nasa right side ng jeep

At ako ay nasa left side near the driver…

I did moved away from them and start moving towards the other
end..

I raised my eyebrows and start to twitch my face…

And the other guy seated next to me…

And moving a bit closer and closer to me..

I decided to bring out my pen…

And being ready to slash it into his throat..

I swear.. I can do it… I won’t let anyone do me harm..

And still they continue to engage in talking such as,

“sige nga, kung malakas ka, kunin mo nga ang number…”

pampam sila… akala mo ay gwapo.. t@ng%na
nila!

and then the other guy who’s an asshole said “makitext ka nga”

then, the stupid guy next to me…

Eventually followed the order of the stupid asshole…

(making himself another asshole!!!)

and this would be the highlight of my story…

“gusto mo masaksak!!!!!!!!!? Lumayas ka sa harapan
ko!!!!!

umurung ka!!!!” yan an nasabi ko… bringing out my
pen…

I knew my rights and I wouldn’t let any asshole make shit of
me!

And i wouldn’t mind to take their nonsense life, to protect
myself!!!!

And as expected, I started talking to them in English..

Actually, I’m not talking..

I’m already shouting so that the rest of the world would know…

These two assholes!!!!!!!! All they could ever say is “no
more”

Stupid assholes…

Wala silang kwenta… pahirap lang sa lipunan…

Parang mga aso!!!!! Bobo na!!!!! panget
pa!!!!

Simpleng English… hindi makaintindi…

Hindi raw sila grade 1…

“then act like one”, yan an reply nang maldita na

gaya

ko!

Maraming matalinong tao, kaya pinagingat ko
sila…

Nakahanap sila nang katapat…

I really wanted to break their necks! Shit!

Nanira pa ng araw ko… bida pa tuloy sila sa blog
ko…

God has better plans. We can never hold on to something forever, we should learn to leave and to let go… But people who’s close to us will always hold that special place in our hearts…

Olivia Navarrete

- My mommy at AMA Computer College

- My friend, shoulder to cry on & my protector

- she’s very bubbly, cuddly and lovely

- she’s very funny & full of sense (common sense & sense of humor)

- smart, strong and God-fearing woman

These are some of the things i could never forget about her… how every morning (when we’re still both in AMA) she always gave me hugs & kisses, how often she asked  if i am ok, how she trusted me w/ her problems, health concerns and life,  for a year how she made our lives so colorful and happy (full of laughs), how she treated me as her child, and never forgetting me (my name) even on her end days…

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I love you so much,Mami…You knew it… I hope and pray that you’ll be happy and be at peace, where ever you may be… I will never forget you… Thank you so much for all of the things you’ve done for me and for sharing your life with me… i miss you,mami…

Thank you for your time and for the effort to be with me…

I kinda miss the friendship that we have…

the old times… even so…

Please don’t forget to remember me…

& let’s continue to be friends…

Kung fu panda was great!

you treated me at teriyaki boy and starbucks…

we took lots of pix together…

i really have fun! thank you so much!

i really haven’t have much laugh within this month and it was quite surprising because yesterday, i submitted my requirements at the division offive and had gone out w/ my close friend, Ralph. And it all went well and i really enjoyed his company, and i’ve been laughing every single minute that we’ve been together. It’s not a date (accdg. to us)! Friends do hang out, right? and this is the example of that. (but we’re both wearing white..hahaha…) * just adding a little color to the story XD

He’s quite lucky at that moment and his being sharing it with me all day long. How come his lucky (asking yourself)? Well, that’s a secret (but in my part, i would reveal it to all of you)!

We have lunch together and he accompanied me at the division office.& thanks to him the signing of my papers went good, and it only took me 2 hours of processing (usually it takes 10 thousnad years)! Isn’t great? Next, we went to timezone. All his expense for all the games we played (really great)! I learned how to missed, i mean hit the right drum and button (we played the drums and guitars, somewhat similar to the dance revo)… If you’ve palyed with it. You can relate with me, for sure! Afterwards, played the basketball (love it). Then, we watched Hulk (i wanted to watch kung fu panda but he’s done with it). after that we went back to timezone and his addiction to the drums started. (hehehe..he’s cool and i envied him for hitting those comboes..huhuhu) Then, we ate at mcdo (he’s treat)and revealed some of his secrets and then, we went back to timezone for his addiction to the drums and from then, we tried the one which gives away free toys… and with that! i have my hello kitty…(hehehe.. nice one) and then, we went home! i was wearing a smile all day long, thanks to him!

*please don’t get me wrong when i say i enjoy the company of boys… it’s just that they’re more out going and has lees kaartehan… and they like playing basketball and that’s why i can relate with them somewhat… (i’m one of the boys)…

today, i go back to my beloved Alma Mater- The Philippine Normal University. i saw my former teachers in statistics: Dr. Tony Dacanay, algebra: (hmmm…w8), environmental chemistry (w8…hmmm), toxicology: Prof. Nelson Garcia and Gen. Chem: Prof. Adolf Roque; & I also talked to our librarian. He’s still bald as ever but still nice.

As i look and roam around the grounds of PNU. I can’t help to became sad. i started reminiscing the past and I simply miss my friends. I can’t imagine how my life would turn out if i haven’t met them. if it wasn’t for them, i might not attend my classes or worst i might even quit school. i couldn’t write all the crazy stuffs that we did but for sure if i would… this page would never be enough.heheheh…

i miss sitting in the field & at the UTMT.

i miss eating goto n burger.

i miss the crying & laughing out loud at d same time.hehehe…

i miss the mushroom seats. i

miss looking at the bid mirrors at the Crs.

i miss the laboratory.

i miss my teachers.

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sarap magaral ng kolehiyo!

it feel so nice, when u feel that u’r important n badly needed. earlier, i have a call for the principal of a special school and he wants me to teach there…(gosh! principal?) isn’t that so nice?  atlas! the long wait is over.. i just need to comply to my requirements then i cud start by tuesday..hehehe… He’s great and not intimidating and he response to my every question (u know, newbie in public school system).

and thanks to mrs. devie, u’re  wonderful (unlike ms. janice… i wud give something for u on monday)! she’s really nice and very approachable. i hope all gov. employees wud b same like u.. thank you so much!

And from that… i can consider this as a great day! Thank you, Lord! for this answered prayer!

hallucinations are really coming into me…

earlier, i thought i saw him standing beside me…

and people are starting to be like him…

as i stare at other guys and i see his resemblance w/ them…

i want him back! as i recall every good things i receive last year, it was his image who’s always been there… (* sigh)

"sorry..nakainum kc aq..npapaemote tuluy aq…"

the first reason i had let go is because i’m hurt.

the second is because i don’t want him to be like that.

third, i’m mad coz his blaming me for not taking his side.

fourth, his recalling all my kistakes.

fifth, coz i truly loved him.

sixth, his sufferings are enuf.

seventh, i’m not worthy for his love.

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it’s so difficult to see him gone.

Good memories are still there,

it fills me with happines.

But still the loneliness lingers,

as i remember the day,

i asked him to stay but turned his back on me.

The day i waited for him in the colds to talk to me

and all i get was a blank stare.

the moment he didn’t replied at my one question:

"wud u still b der for me?",

it takes my whole being and drained every good that is w/in me.

And as i go on w/o him, it was hurting…

i still love him but lets face it…

he hates me. every pieces of me.

my greatest regret here is that:

I CREATED THE MONSTER IN HIM. T_T

can u tell me wt to feel when things dont turn out the way u want it to be? i quit my job because she (my mom) wanted me to move to a stable job… and look what happens now…

i’m really upset and depressed! i don’t want to waste my time sitting on this couch and just watch t.v. programs all day long or just spending my time editing my friendster profile! these are all nonsense! i want to work!

now, if i shud decide wt to do next, i really don’t have the slightest idea… i’m tired of waiting for my slot at the public school and earlier, i have a worst day! the personnel in charge for my division is really terrible! i really wanted to kill her! i’m not there to bring insecurities, i’m there to inquire and watta heck, i h8 her! (* end of the story for her!)

i wanted to go back at AMA but that wudn’t be so easy… i miss everythng there… (* not everyone there) but wt about public school, i have sacrificed a lot for it…. cud i just simply turn my back on it?

Oh God, i wish for answered prayers and some enlightenment… (*sigh)

I really don’t know how to start this blog but let me do it by writing in here that I recently (last Tuesday, May 20, 2008) found my old calculus notebook (yes, right! It’s my calculus notebook during my third year in college). You see, I really hated calculus (all mathematics) and it scares me when I hear it. And with that, this would be the topic of my blog.

My mathematics phobia started way back first year high school. It’s when I got 79 in algebra for the first quarter, followed by 80, 81, and 82 for the rest of the quarters. #@%?! (I HATE MATH & my math teacher). However, trigonometry is better (math for 2nd yr hs). The unit circle, sin 30º, cos 30º, tan 30º,etc. and tons of problem solving (it was just alright…thanks to my math teacher then). Now, there goes my mind! I cannot remember my 3rd & 4th yr maths. hahaha… (I must really hated math since then & maybe that’s why I can’t recall anything. hahaha…) #@%?! So, if you think that’s the end of the story, think again! To continue, I graduated high school with the award for “BEST IN MATHEMATICS” #@%?! (In your dreams, dude! It’s a joke!) And as expected math would always be in my most hated list, even in my college days (*sigh). My first year math:FUNDAMENTALS IN MATH – I never missed any of my class but to tell you the truth, I’m trying my best to learn, concentrate and not to sleep. My teacher is good but the weather is bad (rainy and very chilly-the atmosphere that is very conducive for sleeping. Hehehe…)! But nevertheless by the end of the semester, I passed (82, wasn’t that bad)! ALGEBRA – goodness my teacher is so strict (huhuhu…)! I really hated math & I have really closed my mind for it. I thought I’m going to fail but luckily, I didn’t (82 again) #@%?! My second year math: TRIGONOMETRY – I love it! My teacher is so kind and I really enjoyed her as if I was just gone back high school (87 was my grade! PETIKS! Hehe…). My third year math: CALCULUS & STATISTICS – Have you ever played counterstrike? I haven’t (hehehe..). But to describe the experience here’s a quote, “TERRORIST WINS!!!” #@%?! The best way to learn math is to have a terror teacher. Everybody is forced to copy notes (cause nobody wants to look dumb in front of the whole class, to bring books and notes, read before the class begins, and to study harder to pass those math subjects (God, have mercy!). With restless mind and restless heart, my adrenaline rushes when its already math classes. During class hours, (yeah! Throw me your math problems!) I’m trying so hard to open my superb closed mind for math (huhuhuh..). And I’m very lucky (my classmates, as well), my calculus teacher flew to the U.S. and been replaced by a generous teacher and by then, I more relaxed (have bigger hopes in passing). I just can’t forget the event that we had a quiz, he saw me standing and peeking answers from the other side of the row (when he left) but never bothered to confront me (89 is my grade for calculus…not bad huh?!? Hehehe…). Well, calculus is a nerve-cracking experience! I must say I’ve learned few, forgotten the rest (hehehe..) and I really don’t appreciate it coz I REALLY HATE MATH!!!THAT’S FINAL! By the way, my statistics experience was quite alright (aside from having your hair in a tight bun and some corporal punishments received), I got 92. (Dugo’t pawis yun, pare! I’m proud of it!).

I must cite in here that I was named “MS. CALCULUS” (not because of cheating) by my weird edtech professor. hehehe.. He’s a math professor, but moved in the college of education for several reasons (which I really don’t mind). I told him, I hate calculus and I don’t have any idea on how to put this math in any application with my life (more specifically, can I use calculus in frying eggs?!?! Duh?!?). Going back, after named as Ms. Calculus and those experiences with math… I graduated! Goodbye, math! No more math! Yes!!! Yahoo! Haha… (but my worst fear is yet to arrive).

As expected, I wanted to teach college (to get rid of lesson plans), and I was hired by a college (in Fairview) were I teached chemistry but added to my loads are algebra, trigonometry, statistics and physics subjects (My most hated subjects) for the 1st trimester; 2nd tri, math04: Calculus w/ anageom; and 3rd tri, math05: Diff. cal. (God have better plans and He’s playing jokes on me at those very moments… I hate math! Goodness!) Is this a hex?!? Math seems to love me as I loathed it! I can’t get rid of it! But as a learner, I cannot stop here, I must teach. I must start from scratch and learn it again while I teach it. It’s hard! But things happens for a reason, it was planned long before by God, that I believe that this is just my opportunity to broaden my skills and lessen the horizons and limits within me. And this is my time to like and learn math (for my greater good).

MY ANOTHER CHANCE TO CORRECT THINGS…

(included in this blog are some lessons learned by the author:)

*“KEEP YOUR THINGS” – found my old notes in calculus, I can’t really remember myself that I have done those notes and computations. Thank God for I teached math, I can now relate to my notes. Hehe..

* “NEVER TO LATE TO LEARN” – I may not studied hard before but when I started teaching, I studied harder than I may ever imagined.

* “THE MORE YOU HATE, THE MORE YOU LOVE” – I hated math, now I’m loving it.

* “ I DIDN”T STUDY SO HARD BEFORE, NOW I’M REALLY SUFFERING FROM THE CONSEQUENCES OF IT”

* I DIDN’T KNOW THAT I’M GOING TO BE A MATH TEACHER, NO BODY KNOWS” – expect the least expected but face it with great confidence and ask for Divine Guidance.

* “I’M BETTER THAN MY OLD SELF” – always keep your notes and stuffs, so you can see and say how much you improved.

* “PASAWAY”- who says your teachers haven’t cheated? (Masaya kaya maging pasaway!!! Kala nyo kayo lang? hehehe..)

* “MATH ISN’T THAT BAD! SENTENCE CONSTRUCTION, GRAMMAR AND S-V AGREEMENT IS!”

* “THERE’S NO EASY THIND IN THIS WORLD- OF COURSE, STUDYING IS ONE OF THEM” – study hard!

* “I LOVE MY TEACHERS” – I’m very grateful for all of them (except kay demunyu and several unworthy… sorry)!

If you’re a student, a teacher, a friend or any person who can/can’t relate with this blog: I’m not really requiring your approvals, you may hate me or love me after reading this but to quote everything, I take full responsibility for this truth, actions and experiences I have written here. It was nevertheless, my free will and expressions and no other should be accounted for it. The point conceive here, as quoted from Chemistry by Raymond Chang, “CHANCE FAVORS THE PRAPARED MIND”. I have my chance to correct things, this might be yours today. This is my challenge for you. THIS IS YOUR CHANCE AND I CHALLENGE YOU!

Reading this has its purpose and it’s up to you how to handle this scripts.

We were as one
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I’ll let you fly
‘Cause I know in my heart
Our love will never die

You’ll always be a part of me
I’m part of you indefinitely
Boy don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling ‘cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re ever gonna shake me
Oh darling, ‘cause you’ll always be my baby

I ain’t gonna cry
And I won’t beg you to stay
If you’re determined to leave boy
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably, you’ll be back again
‘Cause you know in your heart babe
Our love will never end

i just simply love seeing you around…

wearing your simplest shirts and jeans…

and u’r very heart warming smile…

how much time do u need?

i’m still waiting for the time for u to notice me…

time to listen to me, even for once…

time for u to comfort me…

was is it always about u? and wt about for me?

selfish acts should end now. be matured. i’ll wait.

let’s grow together, let me help u.

yeah, i’m afaraid…

i just don’t want him out of my life,

but i rather see him free…

than arguing w/ me…

Don’t be fooled by me.
Don’t be fooled by the face I wear
For I wear a mask. I wear a thousand masks-
   masks that I’m afraid to take off
     and none of them are me.      
Pretending is an art that’s second nature with me
          but don’t be fooled,
   for God’s sake, don’t be  fooled.
I give you the impression that I’m secure
That all is sunny and unruffled with me
   within as well as without,
    that confidence is my name
     and coolness my game,
    that the water’s calm
   and I’m in command,
  and that I need no one.
But don’t believe me. Please!

My surface may be smooth but my surface is my mask,
My ever-varying and ever-concealing mask.
Beneath lies no smugness, no complacence.
Beneath dwells the real me in confusion, in fear, in aloneness.
   But I hide this.
    I don’t want anybody to know it.
     I panic at the thought of my
            weaknesses
      and fear exposing them.
That’s why I frantically create my masks
          to hide behind. 
They’re nonchalant, sophisticated facades
          to help me pretend,
To shield me from the glance that
            knows.
But such a glance is precisely my salvation,
   my only salvation,
       and I know it.

That is, if it’s followed by acceptance,
   and if it’s followed by love.
It’s the only thing that can liberate me from myself
   from my own self-built prison walls

I dislike hiding, honestly
I dislike the superficial game I’m playing,
   the superficial phony game.
I’d really like to be genuine and me.
But I need your help, your hand to hold
Even though my masks would tell you otherwise
That glance from you is the only thing that assures me
   of what I can’t assure myself,
     that I’m really worth something.

But I don’t tell you this.
   I don’t dare.
      I’m afraid to.
I’m afraid you’ll think less of me, that you’ll laugh
   and your laugh would kill me.
I’m afraid that deep-down I’m nothing,
        that I’m just no good
             and you will see this and reject me.

So I play my game, my desperate, pretending game
With a facade of assurance without,
And a trembling child within.
So begins the parade of masks,

The glittering but empty parade of masks,
   and my life becomes a front.
I idly chatter to you in suave tones of surface talk.
I tell you everything that’s nothing
   and nothing of what’s everything,
                 of what’s crying within me.
So when I’m going through my routine
   do not be fooled by what I’m saying
Please listen carefully and try to hear
   what I’m not saying
Hear what I’d like to say
   but what I can not say.

It will not be easy for you,
   long felt inadequacies make my defenses strong.
The nearer you approach me
   the blinder I may strike back.
Despite what books say of men, I am irrational;
I fight against the very thing that I cry out for.
   you wonder who I am
    you shouldn’t
     for I am everyman
     and everywoman
      who wears a mask.
Don’t be fooled by me.
At least not by the face I wear.

here are my closest friends in the faculty.

Arvin Andam, Ronald Pecundo and Lyndon Corpuz.

i’m just happy cause i have them…

i choose sadness but i prefer not to

become the saddest person here…

there are some reasons why we should left things behind…

moving forward doesn’t really  mean forgeting the past

but instead just changing the scenery…

please don’t forget to remember me…

i really don’t have to explain why i deleted some of my blogs…

Let’s say i just simply woke up from my nightmares!

A new lesson in my life and a new chapter to begin…

sometimes, I really wish that i was just alone…

as much as i try not to hurt other people,

people are always there to hurt me…

what a fair life!!???!! stfu!

Though you don’t call anymore
I sit and wait in vain
I guess I’ll rap on your door
Tap on your window pane
I want to tell you Baby
The changes I’ve been going through
Missing you.
Listen you

’till you come back to me
That’s what I’m gonna do

Why did you have to decide
You had to set me free
I’m gonna swallow my pride
I’m gonna beg you to (please baby please) see me
I’m gonna walk by meself
Just to prove that my love is true
Oh, for you baby

’till you come back to me
That’s what I’m gonna do

Living for you my dear
Is like living in a world of constant fear
In my plea, I’ve got to make you see
That our love is dying

Although your phone you ignore
Somehow I must explain
I’m gonna rap on your door
Tap on your window pane
I’m gonna camp on your step
Until I get through to you
I’ve got to change your view baby
’till you come back to me
That’s what I’m gonna do

how could you come with me
when you knew all along that you had to go…

how could you you watch me sleep
so close to you
pretending not to know…

how could you memorize my name
and forget who i am…

how could you think
you’re still the same
believing i can…

how could you ask for more
with an innocent smile
trusting me to stay…

how could you close the door
and leave me here
supposing im ok…

how could you break down
my disguise
and uncover my fears…

how could you look into my eyes
ignoring my tears…

i’m back on being alone.

This year was such a great year for me…

as if everything had fallen into thier right places!

is this for real?is this a dream?

when i was young, i knew i can’t do anything good!

as if i don’t have any achievement to be proud of…

i was nothing then…

But the Lord is so good to me…

blessings keep on coming…(unexpectedly)

He made me graduated college w/ flying colors,

and now He had let me passed the licensure exam for teachers.

I knew it was by luck that i have passed the exam,

for i knew that i fell asleep when i was taking it

and I wasn’t feeling well because of my colds.

But He is so good and i have nothing to argue w/ that!

I am just very thankful and astonished by the LOVE He had for me…

And aside form that He had given me my family and friends

who always trusted and believed that i could make it!;

To my students, who are so thoughtful to give me such folder

w/ messages of gladness and greatings,

and who had celebrated along w/ this victory that i have achieved…

(tropang chix)!;

To my AMA family,who trusted that i could really passed the LET!

It was such a blessing that they hired me last sem,

and had given me subjects such as chem, physics, algebra,

trigonometry and statisticsfor it really helped me a lot

(for i have no time to review);

and to everyone who rejoices in my victory,

i wanted to thank you all!

Finally, the long wait is over,

the results has arrived…

AND I PASSED THE BOARD!

i am very thankful to the Lord

for He always answers my prayers.

COngratulations to all board passers!

It’s not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you’ve gotta be
Everything’s changin
But you’re the truth
I’m amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

When I’m about to fall
Somehow you’re always waitin
with your open arms to catch me
You’re gonna save me from myself
from myself, yes
You’re gonna save me from myself

"She Will Be Loved"

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I’ve had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn’t matter anymore

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies
It’s compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door’s always open
You can come anytime you want

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

im starting to have this feeling,

that i’m falling further in love with you….

over and over..and over again!

i really don’t understand this stupid feeling!

i’m quite busy w/ work and life actually…

i forgot to post here, that i’m already working in AMA as an instructor.

if u want to keep in touch w/ me…

just leave me a message or just text me.

yesterday, i had my demo and interview at AMA fairview branch. im applying for a part time chem isntructor,all my panels agreed to take me for that position. but things started to change… when we’re already discussing the subjects that i might handle… (oh, w8!) i was only applying for a part time job and not as a full time faculty… and take note… i was been oriented that i might as well handle calculus, stat and even trigonometry… SHocks! i h8 math! bkt yun an itu2ro q? hahaha… so.. balik tambay n ulit… but it was fun!the interview! the demo! and the faculty members are so nice… i enjoy such experience!

i dont have any intentions to make
everyone like me…
i don’t have the grudge to h8*
i just want to have simple life…
not u telling me what shud i be…
what shud i think of myself…
im dnt live for ur expectations…
i dnt live for ur fancies…
i dnt want to be like this…

You turn my head, but instead
I feel so lonely
I feel for you, i’ve got to say
You put a spell on me

I open my eyes, softly and wide
Lovely flower, you’re my sunshine
I open my eyes, softly and wide
Lovely flower, you’re my sunshine

Light is filtering, your eyes are glimmering
Let me hold you, let me hold you
I think that it’s a sign
you’ve opened up the inner creases of your mind
Let me kiss you, let me kiss you

Hope is signaling, happiness is beckoning
Let me love you, let me love you
I think that it’s a sign,
no more walls to keep me by your side
Let me touch you, let me touch you

should i w8 for u?

i want u. i need u. ur special.

we’re just friends, i know..

but i wanted u to know dt

it was u hu gave me strength

(specially, on my darkest moment).

i was very thankful for having u.

but now, its tym to think for myself

and my happiness…

i’m always here for u. i promise!

maybe things didn’t worked out as planned,
but i never wanted any of my relationships to fail.
That’s for sure!
but how come some people
would just popped-up into your life,
pretending that they knew you…
knew evrything about you…
but the truth is that they don’t…
THEY REALLY DON’T!
as for that,they would never ever have the right
to question me…
question my love for anybody…
or even asked how do i truly loved someone!
or evemore asked, how far can i go for love?

IDLE…

just needed some sense of direction and focus.

just needed some time to allow everything to sink in.

Are you aware of what you make me feel…
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I’m not real
Didn’t you feel me lock my arms around you
Why’d you turn away?
Here’s what I have to say
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That’s when I decided

Why should I care
‘Cuz you weren’t there when I was scared
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I’m starting to trip, I’m losing my grip
And I’m in this thing alone

Why should I care
‘Cuz you weren’t there when I was there
I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don’t care then I don’t care
We’re not going anywhere

Will you come back in a heartbeat?
Don’t be confused of what a great thing we could be
We’ll take a walk on the same street
Can you tell me how Boston is like without me?
–
But you’re the only one who’s apt forthis affection
this affection

So what’s the point in all of this?
When you will never change
The days have past
The weather’s changed
Should I be sorry? Could I be sorry?
I did it all for you
Hoping you would see
Your eyes are dull, your hands are clenched
Are we ready?
But you think about yourself
Only but yourself
But what about:
Un-lonely nights, romantic moments
The love
What about them
Throw it all away
You know me well
You know it’s wrong
Then what is it you feel?
You hide behind those perfect smiles
It won’t fool me because you already did
But you think about yourself
Only but yourself
But what about:
Un-lonely nights, romantic moments
The love
What about them
Throw it all away
The perfect dates, the sweetest kisses
What about them
Throw it all away

Finally, the long wait is over.

Graduated as cum laude for

Bachelor of Secondary Education

Major in Chemistry

for the pictures and stuffs: http://3nvy.multiply.com

i am very thankful for the blessing that the Lord had given me.

this is dedicated for my family and friends.

and so what if i like black?

that doesn’t make me a bad person.

and so what if i had vo0d0o dolls?

that doesn’t made me a witch.

and so what if i wear black nails?

that doesn’t mean i don’t clean my nails.

and so what if i don’t fix myself?

that doesn’t mean that i’m unpretty.

—-

and so what if i ignore you?

that doesn’t mean i don’t care.

and so what if i care?

that doesn’t mean anything, right!

there’s no us!

http://chymic_26.blogs.friendster.com/photos/at_rmchs_bein_a_teacher/

please check it out!

i have loved you more and better

than anyone i have ever known.

That’s because with you,

i have discovered

a depth of feeling in myself

i never knew existed…

you have shown me

the true meaning of love

and have created a place

for yourself in my heart

that will always be reserved

for you and for all of you…

–

for my students.

COMING SOON…

i wish u did all try to pretend that you were all sad cause i’m already leaving!

is that my worth? am i really important?

you’re all telling that i am…yet, your actions shows nothing!

after all the hardship, concern and love i had shown u all?

it was really sad!

it was wrong to ask those questions…and in the first place,

i never asked anyone of you to repay me for that!

yesterday jan.20,2007, my students (3rd yr-Boron)

won 2nd place in their match against III-Calcium(i think?!? :>)

I’m so proud of you guys! i love you all!

-teacher’s note

before this year ends,

i wanted to say sorry

to every1 whom i never meant to hurt,

to every1 whom i had treated w/ cruelty,and

to every1 whom i misjudged;

say thanks

to every1 who tries to understand me,

to every1 who shared thier hands

even if i refuse,

to every1 who had loved me

for who i am n not for the person they

wanted me to be,and for loving me even if i cud nver

feed thier fantasies;

and say i hate u

to every1 who hated me,

to every1 who stubs me at my back,

to every1 who says cruel things about me,

u’re all losers!

i’m lot stonger than i was before,

this is because of what u had done to me.

if u loved me,hated me, or u never minded me at all,

u created me! rock on! peace out!

a box of shoes:

free when you buy a pair of shoes

a pair of converse shoes:

2,630 pesos

money from my parents…

money sent by my brother…

money used to buy the shoes:

2,630 pesos

a gift for myself:

priceless

there are things w/c money just can’t buy.

one of w/c is happiness!

havin’ fun at the mall (students from 3-chromium)

12/04/06

LONG QUIZ about types of chem. Rxns and balancing.

12/05/06

Papers were checked

12/06/06

discussion about formula and molecular mass and then a short quiz was given

12/07/06

Assignments and their quizzes were checked

12/08/06

TEACHER’S DAY

Bonded w/ my students and had some games. I received a letter from my two students from 3-sulfur. It feels good that somewhat there are some students who still appreciate my existence. At section 3-boron, it was fun! We sang “hawak kamay” and I felt good about that… then, l8r that eve…I accompanied them in their basketball practice. Hehehe…

12/10/06

Discussion of % composition

12/11/06

Quiz about % composition

Something w/c is unexpected happened…

12/12/06

I don’t tolerate disrespectfulness! One student from 3-chromium had shown it to me…

So, Ms. Palma changed her mood! And turned into some1 who’s wicked!

+21+ He is absent…is it my fault?

I’m startin’ to like d atmosphere of bein’ a teacher, im startin’ to love my students… it feels like it grows, and it grows each time I spent my time on them.

12/13/06

THE BOAT IS SINKING

We had a game “d boat is sinking”. I had discussed mole concept.

I had fun but as well I had difficulties of explaining it to my 1^st and 2nd class.

12/14/06

I was l8 for d 1^st time. And been frustrated with my students bcoz they’re not reading their notes. I felt bad about that! It was in beryllium were I felt momentum with my topic.

But they didn’t have their assigns with them! Gggggrrrrrrrrr……

12/18/06

I had discussed problem solving regarding mole concept.

I know that my students were all smart but I can never hide the fact that they were all different so I must focus myself to help them learn with the simplest possible ever.

12/19/06

there are few people who attended my class(1^st n 2^nd class). Since later that afternoon there would be an acrobatic show at the quadrangle. I bonded with my students and I have fun in watching that show since I never had seen such. But there is one thing about that show w/c is very disgusting and that’s when a stupid acrobat start stripping his clothes…duh?as if?!i wanted to throw mud in his face! Eeeeewwww….Then, after that we had a meeting about our xmas party and after that discusiion once again w/ beryllium.

12/20/06

discusiion w/ mole problems again since there are only few who came.(sections 24 n 16)

Then, witting letters is my activity w/ sections 4 n 5.

12/21/06

XMAS PARTY

It was fun. We had games. Foods were alright. And I had fun watching them(boron students) eat. Hehehe…. After that the place is such a mess so I helped in cleaning. And it’s time to part ways. But my friends and I, went to the mall but they had change plans so I didn’t go w/ them and fortunately, I saw my students and I joined them at quantum and play basketball.

JUST DIED!

i was alone.

no1 did ever dared to understand me.

no1 cared.

and i dont care at all.

i had died today.

and forever i will.

updates

Nov. 22, 2006

† this 2nd semester
i’ll be teaching at
RAMON MAGSAYSAY HIGHSCHOOL (Cubao)
along with some of my classm8s(ariane, lea and jessica)

† it feels gud today after teaching 4 sections(1pm-7:15), i cn still see der faces…n it feels i hv gained more friends… very tiring but u know what, d feeling is different…i hvnt felt ds before!-teacher’s note

Nov. 23, 2006

† i h8 it! im truly frustrated wd my first quiz!most of my students failed(sections 16 n 24)! -teacher’s note

Nov. 24, 2006

†once more im quite happy again!made som strategies regarding the topic IONS and i thnk my students cud finally get it now -teacher’s note

Nov. 27, 2006

well, what a fine day it was…i had discussed my lessons and i’m quite happy because my students in all fairness had made me feel that they had understand everything…-teacher’s note†

† done wd our final paper, just w8n’ for d approval!†

today wud b d start of my busy days!

i wud b sent in Ramon Magsaysay(Cubao) Highschool.

i wud handle 4 sections namely 4,5,16 and 24.

i wud start my observation tomorrow.

and on tuesday,i wud b starting to teach 3rd HS students.

wt’s wrong wd me…?
i know im fine…
bein’ stagnant wasn’t in my plans..
but when memories flashes,
all things falls apart…
and once again, im lonely…

i may look evil in front of your eyes but defintitely im not.

i may look like i was a bad girl but definitely i am a good person.

i may look like i play wd hearts but i never dared to .

i may look like i was nobody but i am indeed nobody.

these are simple things to reveal to u. specially those who hv haughty eyes.

moral lesson: looks are deceiving

u make me feel like i wanna die…

tRiCk oR tReAt

hehehe…i lost my doll

forgot to take all d pins der..huhu…

and as well as my broom..its gone!huhuhu

hold your head higher than your heart.

(first aid for bleeding nose and also applicable for a broken heart)

nobody likes someone who tries too hard

and acts like somebody she’s not…

one of the coolest and most frustratin’ of all

basics in a keyboard! it’s similar wd solvin’ chem probs…

difficult but it rocks! cool! apir!

i hvn’t been so interested wth ur lyf evr snce u
decide to walked out of my life..
yet, u seems so stupid!?!
y still asking if im alright?…
y asking my friends for dt?…
y still laying gaze upon me?…
u hd left me broken..
im quite lost then..
now i hd ds momentum,
y chsing my fears back???
ur still haunting me…
feels like i cud nver move forward..
i hd made ds ghost..yes dt is true!
but loving u was long over…
and dt cud nver be brought bck agen…
sorry i hd lied..
i cud nver mke friends wd u agen…
i’m still hurting but i’l be fyn…
thanks for making me stronger…
i’m wishin’ for ur happiness..
and hope, likewse ur wishin’ dt for me too..

Gensci, Physics, CHEM…iisa an DPS…

Do you remember me,
lost for so long.
Will you be on the other side
or will you forget me?
I’m dying, praying, bleeding and screaming.
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost??

This is drivin’ me insane…

it’s causing me many sleepless nights!

Stress! anxiety!

and it’s taking all my money away! =’c

Playground schoolbell rings, again
Rainclouds come to play, again
Has no one told you she’s not breathing ?
Hello, I’m your mind, giving you someone to talk to…hello…
If I smile and don’t believe
Soon I know I’ll wake from this dream
Don’t try to fix me
I’m not broken
Hello, I’m the lie living for you so you can hide…
*don’t cry…*
Suddenly I know I’m not sleeping
Hello, I’m still here, all that’s left
Of yesterday…

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

NAIA

he waved gudbye 4 how many times…i ddnt even cry!

dt is bcoz i was happy 4 him fulfilling hs dreams…

and i said to myself dt two years wud jst b a period of time…

P.E.R.I.O.D. O.F. T.I.M.E. was all it was…

but when the plane started to move…tears fell…

as if i was burning with fever…

and my throat had started to dried up… (feeling it was)

so, brother if u cud ever read ds blog… Von voyage!

take care of urself and we love u!

Cause it’s you and me
And all of the people
With nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it’s you and me
And all of the people
And I don’t know why
I can’t keep my eyes off of you
w8in for that special som1? the one that wouldn’t have to lose anything just to be with me, the one that won’t let go of me, the one who wouldn’t survive w/o me by his side, the one who’ll make me laugh and not just to be happy, the one who would look at my eyes and then tell  me that im not beautiful but instead im more than that. i wish it is YOU that i see… yet ur not the one, cause ur no longer free. so i’ll just w8 agen =’c

can’t think of anything to write here…

i’m so bored… yet so busy…

works in school… in life… in love…

whatever???

I linger in the doorway

Of alarm clock screaming

Monsters calling my name

Let me stay

Where the wind will whisper to me

Where the raindrops

As they’re falling tell a story

In my fields of paper flowers

And candy clouds of lullaby

I lie inside myself for hours

And watch my purple sky fly over me

Don’t say I’m out of touch

With rampant chaos –your reality

I know well lies beyond my sleeping refuge

The nightmare I built my own world to escape

Swallowed up in the sound of my scream

Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights

Oh how I long for the deep sleep of dreaming

The goodness of imaginary lights

truth? lies? quite the same.. quite numb now.. i don’t care much..

no.. nver fall for him.. pls.. u’ll die twice..

learn from yesterday.. today and 2mrow..

how could i possibly explain…? no idea…

it just crossed my mind…

let me ask God first..

this is not a note of suicide…

i’ll be back… i promise!

move forward…moving on…

that’s the only path you and i should ever take…

for no one in this world has ever surpassed that mystery of life…

things do change…and so is feelings…

hurt is natural… but when your over it..

your no longer numb..

instead your a lot stronger…

im only human,

and nights were colder,

w/no one to love me that way…

check out our graduation pixs at the photo album of this account…

echem07@yahoo.com

you see…i just don’t want to let myself get hurt this time…if you really mean to be wd me even if i don’t treat you good…u’l stay..u’l alaways b around and still u’l love me…cud u possibly do that? it’s just as if u’l be my savior and i’ll be ur downfall… you see,i am the only one here…it’s me who decides for myself… and i decided not to let any1 hurt me… coz "no one can hurt you without your consent…"

            I’m not expecting that I would be alone. This feeling had made

me inane inside. Who would expect that, THEM, who you considered as

Friends had turned their backs on you just when you needed them most…

            That the warm laughter were all just echoes of illusions; that

happiness were same as if your stirring your body in those thin black sheets

of glass; and that helping hands won’t come even if you scream your lungs

out for help…

            Then, all you could do is to close your eyes since tears had been

dried up; and as ever your EMPTY…

          I was starting to hate this world as i ever did for today I had

discovered that all things I considered precious had reveal themselves

as FAKE!

            And you consider yourself as a mother you don’t even know me…

I’m totally a different person upon your gaze.

-THE ONE THAT I HATED AS ME!

I think it’s true that when someone walked out in your life, someone new comes along…

-And the one who walks away is the loser!

That the more we try to forget of the past, the more we remember…

-That’s why there’s a moment called reminisce…

*But often the not, we tend to remember those things that caused us to be broke…

That something that we gained had also caused us to lose something of equal value…

-Principles of exchange…

That when we get hurt, it caused us pain…

-maybe that’s the reason why we cry…               

That when we laughed, we’re happy…

-but if that’s not the reason, better consult your psychiatrist…

That when we give our best, we always end satisfied even if we loss…

-when we loss the game, someone else has to win it…

When we get wounded, the body reacts to heal…

-homeostasis it is..

* That’s why for those who are wounded, take time with yourself… have yourself a moment of indulgence and take time to heal…

Life is like this for me…and for those people I encounter…if you have something else with your life, I really wanted to know it…give me a message…thank you!